Out of Pleas

"Out of Pleas"

I know what you're waiting for

I hear it in your silence

Keep on waiting

It will not happen

I will not beg!

The better part of my life

Spent on pleas

My well of pleas

Now dry as dust

Mouth dry, lips unmoving.

Too many times

Spent on tears

Eyes waxed into harmattan

A million times grovelling

Knees worn out

Can't prostrate no more

It's much clearer to me now

Thanks to you

Bonded with my soul

Rooted connection formed,

In your abscence

You left too many times

Solitude became my companion

In your abscence I found strength

The strength to go on

In your negligence I learnt

Learnt to be stronger

I will beg no more

And when the day comes to move on

I will do so with no fear

I will have no regrets

Because I did all I could

Gave it my all

Bent backwards till my back hurts

Showed you all of me

The hidden parts, and all

But it wasn't enough

I wasn't enough

Only want me at your convenience

Most days, most nights

Spent waiting for you

I began to grey

I'll no longer wait for you,

To deem me worthy of your presence

I will not beg!

For you to stay, this time.