Dear Horse

"Dear Horse"

How did I get here?

I'm neither sitting nor standing,

I'm just lost in space.

Trapped in time.

Why am I doing this?

Could it be the weather?

The music or the crap food?

I wish I knew.

We have so much in common

You're conflicted like me,

You're wary just like me.

You're closed off, so am I.

Freewheeling, pragmatic even.

Commitment is our nightmare

Are we ever going to wake up from it?

Am I even ready for the answer?

Hard cave surface,

Warm cozy comfort within.

Impenetrable fortresses we've built

Will they ever crumble?

Pineapple thorn skin

Honeyed juicy fruits

Would we ever let this shield down?

My dreaded questions and answers

Can you even feel my energy?

Do I even take your breath away?

Are we even good together?

Is this even meant to be?

Are you the fire to my wood?

Am I enough for you?

Do I make you laugh?

Do I even intrigue you?

Do I even deserve your Soul?

Do you deserve mine?

Is this all in my head,

Is my mind and sight failing me?

Will I ever find out?

They say time tells all

Can I afford time?

I'm just Young, Dumb and Broke

I just want it to stop, and go away

This ache and heaviness in my chest

I just want to feel nothing.

Is there a way I can undo this?